2016 Goals Update #3 Clare

Financial responsibility AND finding a workout routine!

Exercise for purchases!! Worked it out with my Financial Coach today that I need to feel my purchases and not just in my wallet. I was walking by a store that had a knockoff brand that I LOVED 10 years ago. When I didn’t need to be a human turtle and carry everything with me and on my back. Daily. In other words it wasn’t practical. But, I reasoned with myself, it was cheap. I realized two things in this moment:
1) Impulse purchases and low dollar items are what are my downfall.
2) If I attach a physical responsibility to my monetary want, do I still want it? As in, was the bag worth $10 AND 10 push ups. Nope.  My desire to own that goes away.

Ok, I realize this isn’t the complete answer to my work out issue, or to my financial issue, but its maybe a step in the right direction.

Focusing on my relationship with myself:

I haven’t touched on this one yet in my updates–partially because I sort of do it and don’t know I’m doing it.  However, I should report.  It is now a habit to have face time, as in be in the same location with, a friend.

LL and I are picking books for our podcast that are in the personal growth/self-help arena, and I’m focusing on other things in my life that make me stronger as a single person.  So I’ll be a part of a pair, not a half a person until I find someone.

Cleaning and Organizing:

I went through a lot of papers that were just sitting around my room.  I often times open mail, and keep the part that is important and then “refile” it in my room in a pile.  I need to figure out a better way to do this… if you have a good idea on filing papers that I just need to look at in a week or so when I have time to actually read them, and them will toss or actually file them, please leave a comment or email your suggestion to liveclarelesley@gmail.com

 

2016 Goals update #2–Clare

My relationship with money:

I’ve got a note pad page on my phone and I’m noting everything I spend.  UGH.  I HATE writing down every purchase.  I feel like it might be easier if I just walked down the street tossing coins like rose petals.  This is a blindfold removed from my eyes.  Grace says to spend normally so we can analyze… but its really hard.  I’ve stopped myself a few times when I should have spent something.

Finding an exercise routine I can stick with:

A lovely reader suggested I put exersizes on slips and draw them from a jar. Which sounds fun…but I haven’t done it yet. I also look across to Central Park (I live around the corner, not ON the park) and think: ooh the blizzard left some snow, that would be fun to run in…but I haven’t yet–I talk myself out of it thinking of the cold and the wet.  I’ve realized that I need to keep myself accountable in the health and exercise world. So, I need to pencil in time to do that AND/OR have an exercise buddy–LL and The Husband did this, and they RAVE about it, they even make it happen while on vacation.. but I don’t even have a regular routine for anything in my life. The closet thing is morning coffee… but even that varies some days.

I miss living near my friend Bryan–I literally walked uphill in the snow to go to the gym with him, a few times a week. It was great because we would get on the treadmill and gab–so 30/45min would go by and I didn’t realize it.  I kept that up for a couple months.

I really WOULD love suggestions!!

Book Publishing:

One step forward, two steps back, is what this project feels like at the moment.  I just want to get it DONE!!  Working on finding copy editors… if you know of anyone who works cheaply and is good, please leave a comment or email me their info!!  liveclarelesley@gmail.com

Finding an agent:

Took an acting class this week and met a casting director of a theater I really admire.  It went well. So fingers crossed. Signed up for another acting class next week!

This week was harder than the last… but the second week of anything usually is… breathing and powering forward.  Its too early for a Trough of Sorrow!!

 

 

New Year, Same You. Upgraded.

January first, my beau and I decided to make our commitment even more serious.  In fact, we put it in writing.  We are now committed to a two year plan together with our phones. Yep it’s that serious.

Signing up together, and committing to two years meant that we got to get a new iPhone Six Pluses!  Oh yeah, we went for the biggest, baddest phones there were, with all the bells and whistles!!  Now, I’m not here to tell you about how to pick a “family plan.”  Instead I want to talk about “upgrades.”

When you get new technology, there is a learning curve.  There are similar apps, or programs, or options, and most work better than what you had.  Its a frustrating, but also an exciting time.  I realized a yoga app I had used before, not only operates faster, but has more options making it easier to use. Even though it was frustrating calibrating my mind to work with the technology, it turns out it was better in the long run.  So, in doing all of this I discovered that while my phone is upgraded, and it’s this great, new, fantastic version, the inherent part of the phone is still the same.  It still has all the same great qualities, however there are just some that are better, faster, stronger versions of the ones I used to have.

For 2015, I am determined to love the skin I’m in and enjoy every moment.  To practice this, I’m using my yoga classes. I started a 30 day challenge to get me in the habit of daily love and appreciation for all that my body can do. Even in yoga.  Especially in yoga.  I breathe deeply and focus on every pose.  I also make sure to take everything in, and realize while in every pose, how strong I am.

As humans, we sometimes get really pissed off at ourselves for not being able to do something we could do before, or we think we should be able to do today.   All these subjective judgments!!  We make demands on ourselves, even though we know there really isn’t a timeline, except for what we put on ourselves.  We decide when we want something to be done, and we arbitrarily pick dates and times and abilities that we think we should be able to do.  That’s A LOT of definitions and demands we put on ourselves!

In class today I just made the decision that I was going to just freaking enjoy myself and see how strong I was in everything.  For the first time in my entire tenure of yoga practice, I held a headstand for five minutes.  Five freaking minutes I was up there on my head!!  And do you know what I realized?  I always could’ve done this!  I was held back before because I was in my head about how I “should be able to do this.” I got out of my own head, out of my own way, and had the best practice I’ve ever had in my entire history of practicing yoga.  I was thrilled with everything that I was doing.  I enjoyed each pose.  I didn’t get upset when I couldn’t do something.  I just did what I could.  I had the most rewarding 90 minutes of yoga… my muscles are still shaking in the best way!

While I was laying in savasana, I decided that all this new year/new you stuff is so detrimental, and so arbitrary, and so random.  Just because it’s a new year, doesn’t mean you “should be a new you.”  Instead, what if you’re just a better version of yourself? What if you just upgraded yourself?  (I mean it would be great if we could just plug in and sit there for a moment while all the details worked themselves out.)  Kinks and bugs, bye bye!

Upgrading yourself is not as easy as doing it with a phone.  There will definitely have to be conscious decisions made and plans, every time we decide to grow and change for the better.  Instead of being upset at myself for all that I’m not, I could become the new newer version of my best self.  I’m not going to completely change who I am– I happen to love who I am.  I  am really proud of who I am, but I still have room to grow.  Sudden change of who you are shouldn’t happen just because the calendar changed, but instead because you want to become a better, upgraded version of your current self.

Note: you can not upgrade yourself or upgrade your phone several several times until things start feeling right.  I am notorious for not updating my phone operating system when a new one comes out. I prefer to wait a few days, pick an afternoon that works for me. When I have the time to plug in, upgrade and experience the change.  2014 may be gone, and the calendar says its time to start anew.  However, like a phone contract, you can start your upgrade at anytime.  Maybe we’re already a few weeks in, or maybe you’re just now reading this post and its the middle of the year.  Its never too late to upgrade, and there isn’t a time limit.  Love your current you, and find the upgrade that fits your life.

LL